Do you ever just have one of those days?
Well I HATE them....
Almost to the point where I make it worse, because I hate it so bad.
Anyway...
I am about to start a new journey in my life.
I feel like my life, here soon will be a "Blank Sheet of Paper".
New City
New Job
New Apt.
New Friends
New Me
Today I've been sick about trying to find somewhere to live. I have had it so good for the last two years living at home (yes, its time again to move from Vernal Utah). I don't want to have all those worries again. Do I want to live in Student housing or don't I, What if I get crazy roommates, what if, what if, what if? UGG! The only thing I know right now is that I knew I needed to come home for those two years, and now I know its time for me to go. It was really hard breaking it to my family when my mom sat there and cried, my niece and nephew can't understand why i'm leaving and said, "its never going to be the same, do you not like us anymore" :'(...I know right throw my heart on a rock and crush it! But I have seen the changes in my life that would not happened if I were not here.
The Lord has never led me somewhere where he isn't standing next to my side and through all of this I have seen his tender mercies and hand through out this whole decision. I have to be reminded that Faith and Fear cannot coexist, so I have to go forward with faith without question and know that Provo, Ut is where I need to be. I'm getting excited for my new journey and to fill in EVERY single line of that blank sheet of paper (front and back ;)).
GOOD NEWS
I found a job :)
At Thompson Orthodontics. I am feel so blessed to be able to find such a GREAT office to work at. Coming from Wright Ortho. they have very high expectations to live up to, but I think they can live up to par.
#1. Working at Thompson Orthodontics :)
Now the real question is....Do I become a BYU fan?????
I want to share this story with you all, I like to think of this in time like these.
God’s Embroidery
When I was a little boy, my mother used to embroider a great deal. I would sit at her feet and look up from the floor and ask what she was doing. She informed me that she was embroidering. I told her that it looked like a mess from where I was. As from the underside I watched her work within the boundaries of the little round hoop that she held in her hand, I complained to her that it sure looked messy from where I sat. She would smile at me, look down and gently say,
“My son, you go about your playing for a while, and when I am finished with my embroidering, I will put you on my knee and let you see it from my side.”
I would wonder why she was using some dark threads along with the bright ones and why they seemed so jumbled from my view. A few minutes would pass and then I would hear Mother’s voice say,
“Son, come and sit on my knee.” This I did only to be surprised and thrilled to see a beautiful flower or a sunset. I could not believe it, because from underneath it looked so messy. Then Mother would say to me,
“My son, from underneath it did look messy and jumbled, but you did not realize that there was a pre-drawn plan on the top. It was a design. I was only following it. Now look at it from my side and you will see what I was doing.”
Many times through the years I have looked up to my Heavenly Father and said, “Father, what are You doing?” He has answered, “I am embroidering your life.” I say, “But it looks like a mess to me. It seems so jumbled. The threads seem so dark. Why can’t they all be bright?” The Father seems to tell me, “My child, you go about your business of doing My business and one day I will bring you to Heaven and put you on My knee and you will see the plan from My side.”
When I was a little boy, my mother used to embroider a great deal. I would sit at her feet and look up from the floor and ask what she was doing. She informed me that she was embroidering. I told her that it looked like a mess from where I was. As from the underside I watched her work within the boundaries of the little round hoop that she held in her hand, I complained to her that it sure looked messy from where I sat. She would smile at me, look down and gently say,
“My son, you go about your playing for a while, and when I am finished with my embroidering, I will put you on my knee and let you see it from my side.”
I would wonder why she was using some dark threads along with the bright ones and why they seemed so jumbled from my view. A few minutes would pass and then I would hear Mother’s voice say,
“Son, come and sit on my knee.” This I did only to be surprised and thrilled to see a beautiful flower or a sunset. I could not believe it, because from underneath it looked so messy. Then Mother would say to me,
“My son, from underneath it did look messy and jumbled, but you did not realize that there was a pre-drawn plan on the top. It was a design. I was only following it. Now look at it from my side and you will see what I was doing.”
Many times through the years I have looked up to my Heavenly Father and said, “Father, what are You doing?” He has answered, “I am embroidering your life.” I say, “But it looks like a mess to me. It seems so jumbled. The threads seem so dark. Why can’t they all be bright?” The Father seems to tell me, “My child, you go about your business of doing My business and one day I will bring you to Heaven and put you on My knee and you will see the plan from My side.”
Love,
Me
Awe girl I know your nervous about the new journey but I'm excited for you to be closer to me :) If ya ever need anything you can come to my apartment :D I love that story! It's a good one! Everything is gonna be great!
ReplyDeleteI just tried to comment on this and it doesn't look like it worked...anywho, I LOVE that story. And Thompson Orthodontics?! In Salem or Orem office? Either way you're close to us!!! We will seriously need to go on our bike rides =) Love ya girly, I'm excited for you to move out here!
ReplyDeleteLakyn, you have always been such a great example to me. I remember thinking you were so amazing coming to church week after week by yourself or bringing your brother even though your parents didn't make you go (like mine did sometimes haha). Just know that you have always been one of my role models. You have a faith that is unwavering, which has helped me in my life more than you will ever know. I love you girl! I know that you will do great in this new stage of life, and I am going to miss you so much!
ReplyDeleteI am so happy for you that things are falling into place, but... #1 I'm going to miss you! I won't see your bright smiling face every Sunday. #2 I'm jealous. I love Vernal so so much but it's getting time to fly the coop. Love ya girly ;)
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